Where you feel like life has shat on you, stamped all over your bowels and drenched your head in piss. Grotesque imagery as this may be, that's how you're feeling now- it's not that anything has gone wrong, it's not that there's been anything different about this day except the usual drone of normalcy. Yet at the end of it all something or maybe someone sparked a strange kind of fury within you, a negative mass of emotion that has welled up inside and is bursting to come out.
It's not like you can ask him, ask her, ask you? These feelings are spilling out like tomato sauce on fries, gushing from your heart like a woven string of lies. You want to give out your soul but you're afraid that it'll be hurt, you want to share your feelings but you're so scared of rejection, of hate, scared of fear itself that you're holding yourself back. You aren't the best of people... You aren't pretty aren't talented aren't awesome aren't bright, you aren't anything that you wish you could be even if people keep telling you that you are.
And yet you know that this is only temporary, that when you wake up the next morning it'll be all sunshine and butterflies and smiles again. You're not a depressing person but sometimes you feel that way, you feel guilty for being that way because there are people whose lives are worse than yours who face every day with a laugh. Which is what you do when you don't think too much... So why are you being such a whiny brat? Why can't you just accept what you have and run with the flow? Why do you hesitate, hold everything back?
... Why?
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because you're young and have what's known as hormonal imbalances :3
ReplyDeleteI know, that's a really bad answer XD